What did I do? I only aim to impress.

I've always wanted to impress, or please other people by doing stuffs that they want me to do. However, they say that what they want me to do is not what they want me to do. What they wanted me to do was to do something for them, but what they are saying is that I should do what I want to do. It is really tricky the way things are going. It really is displeasing and is also tiring. However another problem comes when I do what I want to do. They always have to disagree with what I do. Is there a problem in what I do? Well guess what people? This is what you wanted me to do! What is it that you will be finally pleased with? What is what you want? Tell me!

Wanted to be an optimist but...

I really have been trying to be an optimist for last 5 years but it has come to me that thinking in a way that is completely absurd is really intolerable and illogical. There is really no way for me to think of something optimistically and I can't accept religions. How disappointing even for myself...